We still got a month left, but my schools already out so they can do something called "extended spring". Whatever that means. Probably gonna register for summer classes. A lot of emotional crap has happened to me in the past week anyway. Feel free to indulge in my fortunes and misfortunes...

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Lets begin with the negatives, shall we? First of all, my sense of morality is wearing thin. It's harder to tell right from wrong, good or evil, justice or cruelty. One person you can thank is my pops. Not gonna tell all the details but here's one - was watching my dad play a game a few days ago. Then the characters all died and he threw the damn controller. Can you guess what happened? Yeah, he fucked up the TV screen. Then he blames it on me, while throwing his weekly two year old tantrum he yells at me "Why didn't you tell me my characters were dying?! Now I broke the screen!" Sure dad, just let me play the whole damn game for you so you can be less of a whiny-ass-****. He uses the TV as his computer monitor as well, so you can imagine how upset he was. Some days before that I also got yelled at for giving him a donut. But that's for another time.

Hatred, long-term grudges, backstabbing, and tantrums run in my dads side of the family. Basically, we're assholes and my 'good ol pops' admitted to that as well. At this rate, I'm gonna be the same way when I grow up. And that's my biggest fear... living the rest of my life alone, as an asshole with no friends or love life that nobody wants to be around. So far, that's how I see myself currently. I feel like a complete and utter geek when I say that anime and video games are my only distraction from stress and anger. I would normally say my friends are, but I don't have any.

Anyone got a way to help a person have better dreams? A good book, or comfort food or something. Anything, cause I wake up a lot feeling depressed about that dream I had the night before. Problem is, I can't remember what I dreamed of 80% of the time. How do I fix what I can't even remember? But the stuff I do remember... I think I've told someone before... They're not scary nightmares or anything, just depressing dreams. And it's not that easy to start the day feeling like crap.

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Whoa... that's pretty depressing up there. Lets talk about more positive stuff. My little bro decided to follow in my footsteps and rip off flash. He managed to get a hold of Flash CS6. Not sure what he's planning to do with it (draw? animate?), but it's definitely not actionscripting. He's pretty good at drawing generic anime girls. He has a lot of sketchy lines, whereas I like to draw with clean lines. He drew a sketch of my OC Petra in his style a few days ago, if he doesn't get an account then I'll post it up here myself. Now I'll follow him and try out anime styles.

Funny, I grew up not liking anime (besides typical Pokemon, Yugioh, or Speed Racer), but man... I hate modern television so much! Reality shows, drama, cartoons... they're all just horrible! Anime is all I can turn to! So I've been looking for animes that I may like or at least find interesting. Little bro's been good with helping me find some. Fairy Tail is still the bezt though.

My grandma used to make the best white rice (in my opinion), but now... she sucks at it. I find it very awkward that ALL the women in my family are horrible at cooking (both mom and dads side). My dad is the only adult that knows how to cook stuff that... well, tastes good! Or even has flavor, for that matter. Anyways, I bought a rice cooker the other day and made my own rice. Used a little too much salt and water, but otherwise it was pretty good. Washing the bowl is a pain though. Next I need to memorize my dads beef jerky recipe. I may me underweight, but I crave food that I actually enjoy. Problem is my tastes in food aren't too diverse. XD

Ugh, I don't like having more monthly journals than deviations. I better get off my lazy azz, and listen to the jazz! ...jimmy jazz

Stay kewl everybody. Aye!